Wow whee! I haven't wrote a journal in months! well I am now 22 and feel old
I have been playing pokemon like it's my job
I have tons of ideas and inspiration boiling over,
I want to do art! or design! or anything!

So I am not sure if I am back back, but you will see some new stuff soon!
<3
everyone

spend most days in this bed that i abuse,
on these pillows that you can't get used to.
i spend entire days putting off that which can't wait
until i'm knee deep in my own waste.

and i think that i'm justified 'cause i've seen what trying's done for those who've tried.

i spend most days in this bed too small for two,
misplacing time like i've got it to lose.
i spend endless days thinking of all the different ways that we make love.

-im back-

And I can hardly get myself out of this bed
For fear of never lying in this bed again
Oh Christ, I'm not that desperate
Oh no, oh God, I am

-Cursive;The Recluse

As of lately things have been awesomely shitty, and with all my studio classes, I have been doubting myself as an Artist, I am not sure I am as passionate or in love with what I do as I previously believed. I doubt my skill and talent and heart.

What do I have what do I have to offer?
am I even a good person?

I am lost and confused and I just do not feel that what I have produced is of any real quality.
So it's gone, and so am I

off to find what I lost or in search of what I never had.
Talent? Love? Soul?
I really don't know any more.

the end...

I am drawing my friends on dev, want one? just ask. I'm bored.